Well being a waitress sucked major monkey balls, i mean really who wants to be a kiss ass you know, anyways fuck that... Now I'm back at round one, where i started in my working life...
I'm back at the shell gas station in Richmond hill, yea i know it sucks but really when the economy's low as it is, fuck being a kiss ass. Because you cant live on it. So yea anyways I have moved once more and I'm in the hills' as I call it, in the apartments where all you see is freakin ducks outside everywhere... found out that one of my friends is not only a mom but she's got another on the way and it's not her other babys dad whatever you call it and she's going through major shit right now... Thank god I cant have kids... but I recently got asked to be married and I am going for it only on the account that I want a two year engagement just for the factors of I don't know if he really is ready for a commitment he sure as hell cant take out te fucking trash when asked but that's okay... because he makes up for it in the HE ACTUALLY HASNT TRIED TO CHANGE ME AND LETS ME BE ME thing... like i can actually look at girls if i want to and he wont' get mad or anything. he doesn't encourage the you me and your girlfirend thing like most guys that i know do... and well he takes care of me...but i am trying to decide what degree i want to go for in school... cause i like photography and i lik graphic design and i like auto body paint but I'm having a difficulty in choosing what i want to do...

Also I have a new kitten and she's a pain in the ass but she's my lil black fluff ball of joy. i cant stand not playin with her...

i miss alot of my friends lately... i just kinda wish to go back to school to see them all again but really who wants to see me huh?? the leader of the pack that went down to the bottom of the pit once high school got over with. *sigh* I think that i became the loser after high school... yup I think I Indeed did.........